ME.MYSELF.

CRY LIKE SHIT

2011-10-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

First day attend my degree class

After class, I balik hostel

Waiting him finish his class and accompany me

Wait till I fall asleep

Woke up at 3smthg

Suddenly feel so emo

And cry terus

Non stop crying till I need take bus and go for class

I am 19, but I still a crying baby.

update update

2011-10-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

It been a long long time I dint update my blog
GOsh...am I so freaking busy?
NO,I am just being a lazy girl in my hometown while having the 1 month holidays.
When been a long time dint update my blog, always will be 1000 of stories wanna say.
Hmm..What should I say?
I have no idea.
I am just freaking bored at Kampar for the 1st day I am back.
HE is busy with his assignment now. SOB.
I wanna talk. Anyone??
From the moment I start my journey on highway, I start to miss my mum and HIM.
Feel wanna cry so much.
How I wish he is right beside me now.
I need HIM badly...

Just randomly HE and ME

2011-08-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hmm....spending lots of happy moments with him

Yea...I really feel blissful when with him

One action already can make my heart sweet sweet jor

Love this picha alot actually...

Moments with HIM

2011-08-04T03:03:00.003+08:00

3days2nights...
Moments with him...
Surprise non stop happening...
He always let me feel like a princess...
whenever with him...
I just like a little girl for him...
feel blessed...
is like the world only got HE and ME...
A kiss before I close my eyes...
A kiss after I open my eyes...
Is simple...
but it mean alot to me...
We did argue...
But arguments let me know that...
HE MEAN ALOT TO ME...
他就是那样的宠爱着我...
不管什么事情...
他就是那样的疼爱着我...
他，曾超权，就是那样对我...
让我觉得第一次无比的幸福...
很希望...
这感觉...
一直维持到...
我们不能再继续下去...

p/s: talk with his mum on the phone and saw his mum today...
OWH!What happen with me?So daring.... :P

HEADACHE lur

2011-07-29T13:13:00.000+08:00

Hmm...
It's FRIDAY...
I should happy with it...
But this FRIDAY,
I am just stuck...
His birthday is TOMORROW...
But I dint plan anything for him...
Even a present or a little surprise...
or a card...
His birthday just clash with my assignments...
Ops...
I am finding reasons to hide my fault...
1st of his birthday with him..
Jau like this GG.COM le...
='[

给特别的他 - 曾超权

2011-07-27T12:35:00.001+08:00

写给那個我最爱的人___因为你、我傻的无可救药 ...

因为你，我每天很晚才睡

我一直在等你

想和你说说话

即使是我睡着了醒来，也会莫名的拿手机看，然而...

我却始终没有看到你发给我的信息

便会带着失望入睡...

因为你、我上线（让你知道我来了）

因为你、我隐身（我只想和你一个人说话）

因为你、我的手机时不时的亮着

我去哪都带着手机

时不时的点击刷新

希望能看到你发给我的SMS消息...

因为你、我的SMS心情不断改变

然而你却不知道

因为你、我会莫名的生气...

因为你、我变得很矛盾

不知如何是好

因为你、我会时不时的想起我们的对话

时不时的一个人傻笑...

因为你、你的一句话可以改变我一整天的心情

因为你...

一切只因为你...

因为你、我会伤心

我会难过

我会流泪

我会生气

我会开心

我会高兴...

你曾说我"傻"

也许吧！

因为你、我傻的无可救药 ...

现在的我懂了很多

为了你

我可以放弃一切 ...

都不曾后悔...

只想告诉你

你一定要幸福快乐...

因为你...

一切都只因为你...

然而你...

却不曾懂得...

ONLY FOR HIM

2011-07-27T00:25:00.002+08:00

How could I have been so STUPID
To do what I did recently
If I could turn back the clock accordingly
I wouldn’t have chosen to hurt you so badly.

I am sorry
For making you so angry
Not that it will make me feel less guilty
It’s just that I can’t bear to see you so unhappy.

Done something badly to him...

Is all my fault,I knew it...

But,thanks God for helping him punish me...

I am suffering sick like hell now,I guess...

Received his messaged at 11.07pm...

'Are you ok...?"

Yea, is just so simply...

but actually it already mean alot to me...

but the continue time...

He never reply me anymore...

I know I am still not be forgiven...

CHANEL, you're just so damn irritating now...

I cried...

Cried till my eyes red...

cried till my eyes swollen...

but...

things already happen...

I ruined everything by myself...

BUSY.BUSY.BUSY

2011-07-26T13:09:00.002+08:00

Hmm...
It's a busy week for me...
Everything clash together...
Assignments...
His birthday...
My beloved friend back from England...
Jet's birthday...
Preparing for presentation slide...
What else more?
I just know that my timetable is full..
Till week 11,I guess.
Not easy for being UTAR student,I guess
HAHA.
Hmm...
Knew something that related to him...
I don't know what should I react...
Kheinee said just don't bother about it...
Nothing will gonna happen...
I wish so...
In the same time,
He told me that He failed one subject...
Worry and Guilty...
If not my willfulness...
He won't spend extra for me...
other than his revision time...
Chanel is NAUGHTY...

Finally...

2011-07-25T11:03:00.002+08:00

Finally one assignment down...
God bless me!
But then,
sick come to me now.
nevermind...
worth for it...
Hope that monkey tutor wont give me low marks
as last time he did to me and failed 9 me!
:P
Hmm...
moment of rushing assignment is not fun at all
Showing temper to him
and He was suffering sick
BUT
Now everything is end.
Prepare for final!!!

I am tired with this

2011-07-24T23:27:00.003+08:00

Again...
New semester BUT
still suffering from assignments.
Burning the midnight oil alone.
At first, though he might can accompany me,
even just awhile
BUT
who knows he is sick now
Moreover,
tomorrow he will be having presentation.
Hmm...
Still the same
Rush assignment alone..
How I wish there is some one beside me
and help
But dream always is dream
So,I am here
hope can relax myself awhile
Thinking about tomorrow need rush back to Kampar by 8am
and take taxi back to hostel....
Things happen in the wrong time
whenever I suffering for assignments.
Fine, just accept it.
Try my best till the end ba.
How I wish I could cry out loud now to release all my stress....

EMO - Day 2

2011-07-21T12:29:00.002+08:00

Wake up around 7am
Prepare to campus
Suddenly vomited
AIKS
Though can manja him when he wake up
Who knows our "COLD WAR" start
I did wrong?
But I just worry about him
='[
Why he need to hide his sick from me?
Do he know how much I care about him?
Till now he dint even reply me a message
Heart so pain

EMO

2011-07-21T01:09:00.003+08:00

It been a long time I dint have such feeling.
Hmm...most probably due to the weather,affected his and mine mood.
Really downwards sloping that type. HAIH...
Seriously I dislike this kind of feelings.I need to act nothing, smile fake in front of everyone.
SIGH.
Besides that, the conversation between me and him today is totally BAD.
Feel sad with every single message he sent to me.
Is just that cool.
How I wish there is something to make me cry.
So that I won't suffer like now.

Assignments had given for weeks.
Now only I start do my assignments.
Because both of us mood not good,
so I start my assignments with another way.
Hopefully to let myself feel better.Wearing his shirt and hugging his pillow.

But still it not really helps me yet.
Just have a strong feeling that,
wish he is right here now and hug me tight silently.
But there is always just a wish or dream.
Have no idea how to start my assignments.
So, open my desktop...
looking those pictures of me and him...
That's why I am here now...
instead of doing assignments...
ISSAC CHEN, IMISSYOU

STRESS

2011-07-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

终于考试完毕了，我可以专心在我的功课上了。

不懂是不是考试关系，发觉我们的感情好像出现了问题。平均每天都会轮流耍脾气，可是怎么也不够我厉害，既然把自己的考试也玩上去了。

是不是热恋久了，所以现在就是所谓的冷淡期？啊！如果是，我真的会受不了啊！

我不想也不希望这样，可是最近的他总是对我有所隐瞒的。明知道我是多心的人，却还要和我作战似的。

我累了！

我要求的感情，不是一直都轰轰烈烈的。

开心时，我们可以谈天说地；

不开心时，只要静静的呆在你身边也心满意足了。

难道说这要求很高嘛？

The most happy moment

2011-07-11T22:41:00.003+08:00

3 days 2 nights.

Memorable moments with HIM.

Moments spent with him let me feel very BLESSED!

Many of my 1st time had given to HIM.

MIRACLE

2011-06-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

This two days I really feel very happy. =]

Tues,[ 28/06/2011] at 7pm, He appear in front of my hostel.

Holy shit, what he told me that day is serious.

I thought that he is fooling with me.

Gosh, that kind of happy is no word can describe!

Yea, He really can do anything for me. HAHA.

I feel that I am so lucky in this world.

He done something that no one do for me before.

Thank you very much, my dear.

28062011,the number that I would not forget.

Hope it same goes to you.

我爱对了嘛？

2011-06-27T17:08:00.003+08:00

不知怎么的，突然很想到部落格一趟，就心血来潮的要打一篇文章了。似乎好久没来我自己的部落格了啊。我的支持者都还好嘛？对不起，遗弃了那么久。顾着谈恋爱嘛？也许吧？没有那么认真地把自己投入在感情世界了。我和他都很好，只是我一直都在发公主脾气，耍别扭，那又怎样？那就是我啊。其实自己真的很庆幸有他的出现，也一直告诉自己要好好珍惜他。

可是有时候，他就是爱弄我生气，有时候真搞不懂他到底懂不懂我在想什么？我是女生叻！那有可能什么事情都说出口啊！

算了啦，人是自己选的，而且自己真的喜欢他啊！！

朋友给了我一篇很有意思的文章，说的是，如果男人能做到那些事情，那么女人就应该好好珍惜！不瞒你们，他，曾超权，真的做到，而且是全部都做到！我是不是太幸运了啊？！

I MISS HIM

2011-06-17T07:45:00.003+08:00

Wake up in the early morning.

Worry about him,he was sick.

Finally I told him everything about my past.

He said he don't mind but I still feel guilty with it.

I love to open my wall because there is one of the place that full of love that he gave me.

I will see all the messages he sent to me before I sleep.

Although just simple chat, but it bring a strong feel to me.

Yea, our love is just that freaking simple but I love it.

Day shine not because of the sun but because of HIM.

People that close to me will know that, his appearance had take away my EMO.

I <3 Him.

1 day trip ?!

2011-06-15T20:45:00.002+08:00

Tuesday I took the latest train, 8.30pm back to Ipoh, just because my mum asked. Fine, I wasted my RM6 to back Ipoh. First time balik Ipoh by train. Reach home, I am so tired till no eye to see her temper le. So settle down, back to room accompany my dear till I fall asleep.

Next morning, which mean today, I woke up and asked her that what she want me to do, she told me nothing. I was like....., wasted RM6 come back and do nothing. GOOD. and I wasted another RM10 back to Kampar. I was so freaking tired and headache with such plan.

Anyway, I still got his support and understanding.

I been wondering lately should I change my blog from English to Chinese.

[ any comment?? ]

(taken when in the train)

[ love this picture alot <3 ]

2011-06-14T10:14:00.002+08:00

Thinking of post something, but I don't know what should I post.

Yea, Mum knew that I got boyfriend and Yea, she look likes agree but instead she just showing temper to me. I kinda suffer for whole day, because she is one of the people that can affect my feelings. I didn't tell him, because I don't want my own problems to affect his mood. I knew he been suffering with his works, so my things, I just don't wish to add on his burden. I still can act happily staying with him, as long as he is by my side. Hmm...sometimes relationship are like this, tolerate is the one of the important thing, I guess.

Yesterday A friend asked me,

"Do your boy control you alot?"

"No, I feel he just let me do whatever I want <3 ,why?"

"My gf said I control her alot."

"How you do first?"

"No,we just everyday keep on texting.."

"LOL.I am doing the same thing to my boy too. We even worst, not only phone but internet too. HAHA."

"WAH, You got so much thing to talk with him?"

"LOL. Hmm..I don't know, Just talk la, no matter what also can talk."

"So sweet."

"HEHE, thank you. I believe you can too."

"Hope my gf is like you."

"LOL. because your gf is not me, that's why you choose her."

Conversation close, blurekx.

Important is, *LOL.* Friends around me are saying that I am so lucky to have AWESOME BOYFRIEND. *HAHA,macam yes

Anyway, I am really glad and thanks God for giving me a WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND.

He really AWESOME *I never praise my ex before le,HEHE*

Our FIRST DATE

2011-06-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

Today I am so happy. Why? Is our first date.

Been so excited with it, I pun tak tau kenapa. :P

Suppose meet up at 12.30pm, but due to personal reason, time delay.

So once I done my stuff, I reach Jusco at 1pm, and our boss still at home, haven't prepare. While waiting him, I go to see got movie for Sunday to watch with little brother. Waited for 15 minutes then he came. Hmm. so go for movie lar, SUPER 8. *macam yes

[ moment we spent in cinema remain P & C ] HAHA.

After movie, as usual go pak tor pak tor lu.

Well, it might look very normal and short but sorry to say that I am enjoy it. [SO WHAT?]

[forget to take picture,disturbed by him]

He showed HIS L.O.V.E

2011-06-10T10:02:00.002+08:00

It's Friday.

Yesterday had been occur a problem between me and him, but in the end settle up.

Mum phoned me when her friend saw I posted,"I just wanna cry out loud" in my FB,she is worried me. I just wanted to shout out loud that " MUM,I LOVE YOU".Sometimes She do nag a lot, but I know that is because she care us. I feel blessed and proud to have her as my mum. No one can replace her in my heart.

Yea, As I say I had faced a problem with him. But in the end we settle up. How we settle? I have no idea. Could not deny that I am emotional girl. What to do? That's me. Feel uncomfortable with it, then just get off. Finally he told me who the girl is, by Isaac Ooi's help. Then I back home and check who the hell is she. Surprise that he liked almost every single photo of her. I pretend nothing happen, because seriously I don't wish our relationship get destroyed by this "LITTLE IMMATURE GIRL"

Anyway, he had give me a very strong feel that I know I can trust him. I am telling myself that I should trust him,since he had be so honest to me. Of course, while trusting, I also will listen to my beloved advices. Thank you for you guys be by my side, when I face a problem. Thank you for worry and care about me.

Sincerely say thank you to LAI KHEINEE, ISAAC OOI KEO WEI, LAU YEE SUE, SYAN TEH SIEW YAN, ELSON YONG SOON KEAT.... Thanks alot for being so caring to me. Love you guys a lot.

I L.O.V.E HIM

2011-06-09T03:57:00.004+08:00

Hmm.Just finish phone with him.

He told me something which seriously affect my feelings.

Although I also don't know this matter is real or not, but as a gf, I still worry about it.

Got a girl might grab away my bf. I trust him but I have no confident toward myself. I feel that I am too lucky to have him.

Could not deny that my bf really handsome, not only myself is praising him but my friends and people around him. Just himself ignored. What to do?

Handsome guy sure got lots of admirer de ba. Every night before I sleep, I will feel blessed that I got him. Without him, my life might still be black and white due to the previous bf. He really do shine my life. Thank you, dear.

One of my dearest ji mui, Isaac Ooi Keo Wei said that he very jealous me that I am so sweet with him now. He asked me to appreciate him. Of course I will, but who know one day God jealous and take away him?

p/s: listening to [ U make me wanna - Blue ]

Back from Pangkor

2011-06-06T11:34:00.002+08:00

Woah,what a 3days 2 nights trip at Pulau Pangkor.

Hmm...Actually I don't wanna go to this trip that organised by B.A Society.LOL.But in the end I attend this trip due to my housemate,Siew Yan. She is the one asked me to go. Well, I would like to thank her for inviting me to go, if not I don't know that it's so fun. I wanna to thank you my bie too for being so understanding.HEHE.Love him the most.

The first day I was in Pulau Pangkor,there is one of the night activities,night walk in jungle.Walau,those instructors are so bad, putting us in the jungle for one hour without phones and torch lights. HOLY SHIT! God know that I damn scare of darkness. Due to this, my boy worried me so much I guess.HAHA...once again he showed me how much he love me.

The second day was the snorkeling and kayak games. HOLY SHIT too! Because I DON'T KNOW SWIM. Gosh...That moment I though I gonna die kaw kaw in the Pangkor Sea. Then I told my group mates about it. My group except me and my housemate, Siew Yan, then is the four guys, which I don't really remember their names,but now okay adi lar.They are Nicholas, Zhi Yang, Chong Yao and Shaun. LOL. Before we go for snorkeling, there have a briefing for us. So those instructors bring us to the sea to test us.While learning, my group mates lost me already, and keep shouting "Chanel" in the sea. Walau, so embarrassing lor. But still thank you for so caring.

I am glad to know them, tell me that there is still people that so caring. LOL.

The third day which is the last day, we had a rock climbing activities. Once again, die kaw kaw. I scare of it lar and they keep comfort me and protect me, by my side, keep an eye on me. LOL. Thank you so much to my beloved group mates. I was like a princess, a little girl among them. *Hey, I am the most young in the group,they suppose to do so* :P

Anyway, I am enjoy with this trip. <3

p/s: will update pangkor trip photos soon.

About HIM < 3

2011-06-01T13:00:00.004+08:00

Due to my last post is about 4 months ago.HOLY SHIT!I had been dump up my blog for so long.Sorry my dear.

Well,now I am having SEM4.At first will feel like so freaking MEMALUKAN when know I got SEM4.But sooner I realized "SO WHAT?".HAHA.

Anyway,Chanel is here by to bring a good news to all my blogger.I am in a relationship now!Yeps.Ya,although I had in a relationship before this,but this is the first time I announced to public.This guy is totally special than my previous exs'. He really changed my life. *macam yes*

He love me more than I love him.Yeah,this is what I wish for from my boyfriend.And he make it. Actually there is lots of things he have that make me feel comfortable when with him. He not only my boyfriend but also my listener. Wahaha. Lazy to type so much.:P

Here is the picture of my boyfriend.

Will update you guys soon. =]

Have a nice day to everyone.

我回来了

2011-02-27T15:51:00.002+08:00

好久了，我没有POST部落格。在忙之余，我也挺懒惰啦！哈哈！不好意思！
两个月的时间，发生了好多好多事情！别说两个月，一天也可以发生很多我们想象不到的事情。
怎么说呢？2011的我，生活好像没有2010的那么EMO了。是怎么回事？我也不知道。现在的我，只希望每天晚上都有一个完美的句号。
以前的我好像一直都因为朋友而活，可是我心里所谓的好朋友，从来就没有认真地关系过我，只懂得需要我时才找我；既然你们如此对我，我也无言了，心已经伤透了，我们就保持着朋友关系吧，什么好朋友，好姐妹，都是骗人的，到某一段时刻，这些统统都被遗弃了，不是嘛？
活了19年，大部分的人情世故，我都看到了。可以说，一个人在告诉我事情，我都大概可以猜到了。有时我可以自认我看得懂别人的事情，解决到别人的问题，可是我自己的，却永远解决不到。我要求的永远都是我得不到的；我不想要的偏偏就出现在我眼前，上天啊，你在玩弄我嘛？说真的，我玩不起啊。我累了，好想有个我能依赖的肩膀给我好好休息。
可惜啊，男人啊男人，为什么你们就那么喜爱欺骗女人？难道你们不知道女人是很容易受伤害的动物嘛？身边有很多热恋中的情侣，也有些是受了伤的朋友，热恋中的朋友，我希望你们能幸福快乐，受伤了的朋友，就别再为了他/她而流泪，不值得啊，前面还有很多事情等待着你啊！
我这篇文章很闷吧？也许，可是都是在说着一些我每天都在面对的事情。
难道没有了爱情，人们就不能活下去嘛？不是的！没有了爱情，我们还有亲情和友情在我们的身边等待着我们，陪伴着我们！爱情不是全部！

又是伤心的时刻

2010-12-02T10:29:00.002+08:00

不知道为什么，每个月总会有一段时刻是我最不开心，最想有个人来安慰的时刻，也不懂是为什么，我在闹情绪？也许吧...时间越长，我就觉得我身边真的没有一个朋友是无时无刻记得我的！有些不太熟悉的朋友说，你就好呀，每天都有不同的人围绕在你身边！其实，不是，只是我们彼此都在找朋友解闷！不是嘛？可是我没有他们那么幸运，有所谓的兄弟陪伴他们，我？没有一个，是我自己不信任他人，还是他人对我没兴趣？不懂，开始觉得自己的人缘很差。也许真的是问题出现在我身上吧。可是我能怎样？如果我改变了，你们还会有哪个兴趣去懂我嘛？我想你们只会更加远离我，不是吗？那些曾经告诉我，会一直呆在我身边的人，其实你们只是在安慰我，每次当我真的需要你们是，你们在哪里？一路以来，我真的走的好累，到底到什么时候，我才能找到我的知音？不懂，也许要很久，也许根本就不存在。一个我从小学就认识的朋友到大学，我们一直都就读同一间学校，不是约定是巧合！原本我以为她是我唯一可以完全信赖，依赖的朋友，可是在一个不知不觉的情况下，我才知道自己在她心里原来是这样的人，我真感谢那个告诉我的人！妈说的对，对朋友别太过好，因为我们不懂谁是在珍惜我们，谁是在利用我们的。对，最近我开始发现我一直不断为朋友付出的，得到的是他们不珍惜，那种心痛，谁能了解？我真的走的好累，还想有个依靠！谁会是真正了解我的人？我真的不懂了，也许我一直以来把真实的自己给关闭起来是对的！其实有一个我能信赖的他，可是我不想因为我的事情而麻烦了他。每次每次我有事情，他总会很用心聆听，然后给我意见，又是圣至骂我呢，可是到最后他还是会告诉我，他会永远待在我身边陪伴我！CHEN KAH SOON，真的谢谢你了！我也很高兴你会分享你的事情给我，当你告诉我，我是你唯一一个亲近的女性朋友时，不懂怎么的，心里很开心，也许真的好久没体会到这种感觉吧！可是你即将离开了，到时候的我肯定有被打回原形的！怎么办！！我好想把你留在我身边啊！那么有什么事，我都有你这个哥哥给我依靠,那该多好啊！

好久好久我没有哭了，突然之间好像痛苦一场，可是，眼泪怎么也不掉下来！真可恶！

到底我这种烂心情要什么时候才会离开？我真不懂！

有句话说，你笑很多人陪你笑；你哭只有夜深在陪伴你！是真的！我一次又一次的领教过了！！

算了，想那么多也没有用，就让事情顺其自然吧！！

好久没写过那么长的文章了！

烦恼，烦恼，还是烦恼

2010-10-30T23:24:00.002+08:00

最近烦恼一直围绕着我，人生真的是有上有下的，以为来到了大学，我就没以前那么的辛苦，至少我能找到知心的朋友，无可否认我认识了好多的朋友，可惜暂时都还没遇到我的信任的，除了我的三位知己，ShuJing, Sheng Rong 和 Raye！我真的很感谢你们的出现！每当我不开心时，你们永远都会听我诉苦，因为你们，我才轻松了多！现在真正的领悟到，大学就是我们迈向社会的第一步！在大学，遇到种种不同性格的人，和不同的人做assignment，也因为这样，渐渐的在磨练着我的脾气，有好有坏！也不懂，当我不发脾气时候，不代表你可以得寸进尺，我只是想留一条后路给彼此。也许别人容忍不到我的脾气，在此我想所谓容忍不到我的人说一声对不起！感谢的到来，让我和我的10年之多的朋友感情也慢慢的在退了！不过，也不能怪谁。因为也许是缘分已尽。算了，我就好好的把我的Foundation Year 给完成吧！就算当中我品尝了，甜酸苦辣，我也好无后悔之义，因为就是你们，让我在成长过程中，变得更成熟！

对！CHANEL CHAN,你一定要更成熟，别败给那些看不起你，欺负你的人！你一定可以！背后还有我敬爱的妈妈，我的宝贝们朋友，谢谢你们的陪伴！我真的好开心我的人生路上有你们！！

2010-10-07T20:12:00.002+08:00

突然心血来潮的要用华语来写Blog.最近都很懒blog了，其实也不是，最近好像很多事情发生似的。也不懂是为什么，事情一波接一波的，难道大学生涯真的要如此度过嘛？

对，别再问我为什么不再那么的参他们了，因为我总觉得自己被忽略似的，总觉得自己不受别人欢迎，既然我的存在带给你们那么多的麻烦，那我会自动离开。我不想再这样下去，真的好辛苦！对！我现在的朋友不多，可是我相信我会有更多朋友的！

你！我真的受够了！你真的不懂自己的受欢迎度到哪里嘛？也许我不配批评你，可是我真的忍无可忍，所以我才离开的！你真的认为自己是那么受欢迎的嘛？你自我的性格也太过分了吧？以为大家是朋友所以我才敢麻烦你载我，你以为我开口去问你，自己会好过嘛？你知道这种要依靠别人的心情有多难受嘛？如果没必要，我也不想去麻烦你！你不能帮就直接说，为什么要找那么多的理由来推开我？

在此我想感谢我的SHU JING，无论我怎样，都愿意听我诉苦！真的谢谢你了！感谢你的帮忙！如果不是你，我都不懂自己是如何渡过这些问题的！万分的感谢！

To JLJW,

You always say that I never post thing about you in my blog.Because of this problem, we had been argued again and again.Today I post it to you.Been few days we dint text to each other le, you said that Sem 2 is much more harder than sem 1 for you. So the same for me. But I want you to know that, no matter how,I also will by your side and listen to your problems. I might not help u but at least u tell me is much more better than put in your heart. IMY and ILY, JLJW!

Finally I update my blog

2010-09-22T14:41:00.002+08:00

Wed, end my 1st Math class at 1pm.
First time attend Math full of concentrate.
Good Girl.
It been a quite long moment that I dint not update my blog.
Ok,due to my laziness.
Sorry about that.
Well, where should I start my story?
Let's start it after exam.
Back to Ipoh, become the driver of the family, fetching them go anywhere they want.
But I enjoy the moment with Mum.
On Wed, friend called and asked me to work as a part time waitress at O Place.
I had tell him that Okay!
Wah, 1st day work I saw Zhen Hong and his girlfriend.
Paiseh~
Besides that, on the same day, I drop my handphone to the toilet bowl!
Godness!!!
Ask my friend to pick up for me.
Hahaha...
Evil me.
Too bad that the phone cant use anymore.
Heart pain like hell.
On the last day of work, which is Friday, Kalvyn and his big family come to O place.
Lol.This time lagi mati.
But actually nothing happen pun lar...
At the same day, one of my colleuge asked me some questions...
(through writing on a piece of paper)
Him : May I ask you some question ?
Chanel : Ya.
HIm : May I know do you have boyfriend?
Chanel : No
Him : I am so happy to hear about that.
Chanel : ZzZ
Him : Can I have your handphone number?
Chanel : Busy now,got so manyh customers.
Story end till today.
Haha...
The most happy moment is spending my holidays with Kheinee, Andrew, Jauyan, Ah Pith, Kah Wai, Nicole, Yik Woon and Cheng at Genting.
First time can go genting with friends.
Play many different kind of games that I never play when go with Family.
Due to mum wei kao!
Story end.
Actually sitll got many things wanna say.
But let go step by step ba.

Finish Exam

2010-09-07T21:16:00.002+08:00

Wow! Finally my Y1S1 had end. so do my exam. I would like to say thank you to Andrew Lam for fetching me back to Ipoh. If not,I might need to take bus back lea.Sob Sob. Hmm...Once reach home I start to feel very lazy. Just want sleep.Hoho...Even feel lazy to blog. Hoho... Anyway, I will update what I had promise to Super Mickey! Haha... Wait ha lar, Sor Poh Mickey!

2010-09-02T10:02:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggers, I am sorry that I have been on e month did not update my blog.Actually I do wish to update it every moment, but too bad that I have to face my FINAL EXAM first.I am sorry for that.I have alot of things wanna to tell at here but then I really lack of time.Hmm...Will be back to my blog on the 6th of September.I am sorry with it.

By the way, I would like to wish all the best to all Utarian friends!

2010-08-04T21:18:00.002+08:00

Hmm.Sorry for my late update,was busying with my assignment and radioplay.Finally today I can sit down and post up my blog ya.
First,I would like to say that quite happy that my roommate talk to me back.Wee..I love you.
Second, I have finsih all my assignment at last, now only left radioplay and my presentation.Lol.Nervous when mention presentation,need wear formal pulak.Argh!!
Third, today I heard one of my classmate told me that in my group, Y22, got some childish guys putting rumors about me, backstabbing me.What the heck?! Why talk behind me? Talk in front me is better,aren't??

Argh..Stop thinking all those idiot things.Chanel should only remember all those happy memories with friends.Love you all!

Math Quiz

2010-07-27T21:30:00.002+08:00

Today have Math Quiz.Owh...Is hard enough for me lo.Too bad, I lazy + stupid = worst result.

Ok,stop thinking about the Math Quiz.Should concentrate in all my assignment and FINAL EXAM!Argh.Think dou also scare jor.I dont want stay one more year at there.

Stop the crap.Lol.Ok,today I feel that myself normal back abit.Thank you to my lovely sister, LAU YEE SUE. Always 24hours on call to comfort me and by my side.Emo together, crazy together, cry togehter.Do everything together.But the bad news is, sister is going to kl soon to work.Wahaha.Then I can go kl liao, mum will let also liao.Hehe..Lol.Sure want sem break only go la. LAU YEE SUE BABE, I WILL MISS YOU ALWAYS!

U Life still remain de same,busy busy busy and busy.Everyday after class either go find lecturer nor attend group discussion.Lol.Thank you for my group members making me more and more hardworking.Love you all so much, and of course wont forget my group Y22 other members ya!About other unhappy things I don't want mention le, I should forget and forgive, besides should change myself also.Chanel ar Chanel !! Change change change!! Ya, CHANGE!!! Unhappy things faster get away from my mind I only welcome HAPPY things. I won't let my enemies got any people go in, but friends list will forever welcome to add in.Hehe.Won't occur any enemies in my life from this moment start. I LOVE EVERY SINGLE FRIEND I KNOW, NO MATTER U HATE ME OR LOVE ME.

Week 9

2010-07-26T19:53:00.002+08:00

Another week at UTAR.So fast...Tomorrow will be having Math Quiz,Argh.U Life really not so relax as we think.Lately, I being angry with the stupid idiot fucking line at the house I staying at Kampar now.Dont know which idiot housemate go block downstair line,make most of us could not online.Once the RED WIRA car outside the house,then we sure dont have nice day one!!!Argh!!!Selfish people he is!!!Lately, mood being swing around,up and down.What happen with me?I don't know.Kheinee said this is normal de wor.I don't know.For so long I at UTAR, thank you for Kheinee being by my side.Kheinee, I LOVE YOU!
Chanel ar Chanel, when only your mood will normal back ? Don't know... Aiks.
Time to study for Math Quiz!
All the best to Y22!

U Life

2010-07-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

Most of the people say that U life is the most wonderful life that we never happy,but honestly I don't feel so.Why? Is my own problem or other problem? I think is my own problems.I dont know,maybe what my friend said are true."XIONG QU HOU,TONG ZHU NAN",which mean can fun togehter but stay together will be very hard.Ya,everyone have their own lifestyle so do I. I aint a talkative person but at the same time I could not whole day non talk with a person. I dont know should I say having problem with roommate, because I myself also dont know really know what happening around. She just will talk to me when she want to talk. Maybe I really not her world de people ba.I think so. I play when it should play, I serious when it should serious. But the way I am not everyone could accept,this is the fact. Ya, going to change to single room next year. I think I really suit to be in single world. What to do, I am emo girl !

People say U life people will be very friendly, but I dont think so because most of the people I saw everyday also wearing a face,which mean FAKE,including myself. Dont tell me that just dont act fake ar, sorry, not I want but everyone is doing so. This is the true life, I think.

But anyway, I glad to have some wonderful housemate like , SIEW YAN, SENG KEE, SOON KEAT, BENNY and so on. Thank you for you all de caring. and I would like to thank you all my Y22 de classmates for being so friendly with me although I dont know you all are sincere or not but I think you all are using heart to be friend aint like certain people de.

By the way, my beloved gor gor , Clemenn Phoon had created a name for me, VAMBIE CHANEL CHAN.Although he always like to bully me but is a good gor gor also, pamper me alot.Hehe...

I am back

2010-07-08T01:24:00.002+08:00

It been a long period I had stop blogging, due to I don't have much time to update myself through blogging and I feel tired with it.Well,finally I have the leave the home and come to a nice place, Kampar. At first, I though I can start my another level of life here.Ya it it,but mostly the sad parts more than the happy parts. Why such things still happen with me? Chanel,should wake up and face the reality of the world. Be independent. Ya,I know that the life I having now is fake, certain people around me is fake too.I know who are they, but I just remain silent. Few of my closest friends ask me why do you still talk to the people who doesn't thought you as a friend? I told them,I prefer have more friends than enemies. During secondary school, we use to hate this one anti that one, but when come college the way we think, the way we do are to the mature way. No more childish childish things.

Chanel want to make herself more independent and mature ! Chanel must be so!