update update

It been a long long time I dint update my blog
GOsh...am I so freaking busy?
NO,I am just being a lazy girl in my hometown while having the 1 month holidays.
When been a long time dint update my blog, always will be 1000 of stories wanna say.
Hmm..What should I say?
I have no idea.
I am just freaking bored at Kampar for the 1st day I am back.
HE is busy with his assignment now. SOB.
I wanna talk. Anyone??
From the moment I start my journey on highway, I start to miss my mum and HIM.
Feel wanna cry so much.
How I wish he is right beside me now.
I need HIM badly...

Just randomly HE and ME

Hmm....spending lots of happy moments with him

Yea...I really feel blissful when with him

One action already can make my heart sweet sweet jor

Love this picha alot actually...

Moments with HIM

3days2nights...
Moments with him...
Surprise non stop happening...
He always let me feel like a princess...
whenever with him...
I just like a little girl for him...
feel blessed...
is like the world only got HE and ME...
A kiss before I close my eyes...
A kiss after I open my eyes...
Is simple...
but it mean alot to me...
We did argue...
But arguments let me know that...
HE MEAN ALOT TO ME...
他就是那样的宠爱着我...
不管什么事情...
他就是那样的疼爱着我...
他，曾超权，就是那样对我...
让我觉得第一次无比的幸福...
很希望...
这感觉...
一直维持到...
我们不能再继续下去...

p/s: talk with his mum on the phone and saw his mum today...
OWH!What happen with me?So daring.... :P

HEADACHE lur

Hmm...
It's FRIDAY...
I should happy with it...
But this FRIDAY,
I am just stuck...
His birthday is TOMORROW...
But I dint plan anything for him...
Even a present or a little surprise...
or a card...
His birthday just clash with my assignments...
Ops...
I am finding reasons to hide my fault...
1st of his birthday with him..
Jau like this GG.COM le...
='[

给特别的他 - 曾超权

写给那個我最爱的人___因为你、我傻的无可救药 ...

因为你，我每天很晚才睡

我一直在等你

想和你说说话

即使是我睡着了醒来，也会莫名的拿手机看，然而...

我却始终没有看到你发给我的信息

便会带着失望入睡...

因为你、我上线 （让你知道我来了）

因为你、我隐身 （我只想和你一个人说话）

因为你、我的手机时不时的亮着

我去哪都带着手机

时不时的点击刷新

希望能看到你发给我的SMS消息...

因为你、我的SMS心情不断改变

然而你却不知道

因为你、我会莫名的生气...

因为你、我变得很矛盾

不知如何是好

因为你、我会时不时的想起我们的对话

时不时的一个人傻笑...

因为你、你的一句话可以改变我一整天的心情

因为你...

一切只因为你...

因为你、我会伤心

我会难过

我会流泪

我会生气

我会开心

我会高兴...

你曾说我"傻"

也许吧！

因为你、我傻的无可救药 ...

现在的我懂了很多

为了你

我可以放弃一切 ...

都不曾后悔...

只想告诉你

你一定要幸福快乐...

因为你...

一切都只因为你...

然而你...

却不曾懂得...

ONLY FOR HIM

How could I have been so STUPID
To do what I did recently
If I could turn back the clock accordingly
I wouldn’t have chosen to hurt you so badly.

I am sorry
For making you so angry
Not that it will make me feel less guilty
It’s just that I can’t bear to see you so unhappy.

Done something badly to him...

Is all my fault,I knew it...

But,thanks God for helping him punish me...

I am suffering sick like hell now,I guess...

Received his messaged at 11.07pm...

'Are you ok...?"

Yea, is just so simply...

but actually it already mean alot to me...

but the continue time...

He never reply me anymore...

I know I am still not be forgiven...

CHANEL, you're just so damn irritating now...

I cried...

Cried till my eyes red...

cried till my eyes swollen...

but...

things already happen...

I ruined everything by myself...

BUSY.BUSY.BUSY

Hmm...
It's a busy week for me...
Everything clash together...
Assignments...
His birthday...
My beloved friend back from England...
Jet's birthday...
Preparing for presentation slide...
What else more?
I just know that my timetable is full..
Till week 11,I guess.
Not easy for being UTAR student,I guess
HAHA.
Hmm...
Knew something that related to him...
I don't know what should I react...
Kheinee said just don't bother about it...
Nothing will gonna happen...
I wish so...
In the same time,
He told me that He failed one subject...
Worry and Guilty...
If not my willfulness...
He won't spend extra for me...
other than his revision time...
Chanel is NAUGHTY...

Finally...

Finally one assignment down...
God bless me!
But then,
sick come to me now.
nevermind...
worth for it...
Hope that monkey tutor wont give me low marks
as last time he did to me and failed 9 me!
:P
Hmm...
moment of rushing assignment is not fun at all
Showing temper to him
and He was suffering sick
BUT
Now everything is end.
Prepare for final!!!

I am tired with this

Again...
New semester BUT
still suffering from assignments.
Burning the midnight oil alone.
At first, though he might can accompany me,
even just awhile
BUT
who knows he is sick now
Moreover,
tomorrow he will be having presentation.
Hmm...
Still the same
Rush assignment alone..
How I wish there is some one beside me
and help
But dream always is dream
So,I am here
hope can relax myself awhile
Thinking about tomorrow need rush back to Kampar by 8am
and take taxi back to hostel....
Things happen in the wrong time
whenever I suffering for assignments.
Fine, just accept it.
Try my best till the end ba.
How I wish I could cry out loud now to release all my stress....

EMO - Day 2

Wake up around 7am
Prepare to campus
Suddenly vomited
AIKS
Though can manja him when he wake up
Who knows our "COLD WAR" start
I did wrong?
But I just worry about him
='[
Why he need to hide his sick from me?
Do he know how much I care about him?
Till now he dint even reply me a message
Heart so pain

EMO

It been a long time I dint have such feeling.
Hmm...most probably due to the weather,affected his and mine mood.
Really downwards sloping that type. HAIH...
Seriously I dislike this kind of feelings.I need to act nothing, smile fake in front of everyone.
SIGH.
Besides that, the conversation between me and him today is totally BAD.
Feel sad with every single message he sent to me.
Is just that cool.
How I wish there is something to make me cry.
So that I won't suffer like now.

Assignments had given for weeks.
Now only I start do my assignments.
Because both of us mood not good,
so I start my assignments with another way.
Hopefully to let myself feel better.Wearing his shirt and hugging his pillow.

But still it not really helps me yet.
Just have a strong feeling that,
wish he is right here now and hug me tight silently.
But there is always just a wish or dream.
Have no idea how to start my assignments.
So, open my desktop...
looking those pictures of me and him...
That's why I am here now...
instead of doing assignments...
ISSAC CHEN, IMISSYOU

STRESS

终于考试完毕了，我可以专心在我的功课上了。

不懂是不是考试关系，发觉我们的感情好像出现了问题。平均每天都会轮流耍脾气，可是怎么也不够我厉害，既然把自己的考试也玩上去了。

是不是热恋久了，所以现在就是所谓的冷淡期？啊！如果是，我真的会受不了啊！

我不想也不希望这样，可是最近的他总是对我有所隐瞒的。明知道我是多心的人，却还要和我作战似的。

我累了！

我要求的感情，不是一直都轰轰烈烈的。

开心时，我们可以谈天说地；

不开心时，只要静静的呆在你身边也心满意足了。

难道说这要求很高嘛？

The most happy moment

3 days 2 nights.

Memorable moments with HIM.

Moments spent with him let me feel very BLESSED!

Many of my 1st time had given to HIM.

MIRACLE

This two days I really feel very happy. =]

Tues,[ 28/06/2011] at 7pm, He appear in front of my hostel.

Holy shit, what he told me that day is serious.

I thought that he is fooling with me.

Gosh, that kind of happy is no word can describe!

Yea, He really can do anything for me. HAHA.

I feel that I am so lucky in this world.

He done something that no one do for me before.

Thank you very much, my dear.

28062011,the number that I would not forget.

Hope it same goes to you.

我爱对了嘛？

不知怎么的，突然很想到部落格一趟，就心血来潮的要打一篇文章了。似乎好久没来我自己的部落格了啊。我的支持者都还好嘛？对不起，遗弃了那么久。顾着谈恋爱嘛？也许吧？没有那么认真地把自己投入在感情世界了。我和他都很好，只是我一直都在发公主脾气，耍别扭，那又怎样？那就是我啊。其实自己真的很庆幸有他的出现，也一直告诉自己要好好珍惜他。

可是有时候，他就是爱弄我生气，有时候真搞不懂他到底懂不懂我在想什么？我是女生叻！那有可能什么事情都说出口啊！

算了啦，人是自己选的，而且自己真的喜欢他啊！！

朋友给了我一篇很有意思的文章，说的是，如果男人能做到那些事情，那么女人就应该好好珍惜！不瞒你们，他，曾超权，真的做到，而且是全部都做到！我是不是太幸运了啊？！

I MISS HIM

Wake up in the early morning.

Worry about him,he was sick.

Finally I told him everything about my past.

He said he don't mind but I still feel guilty with it.

I love to open my wall because there is one of the place that full of love that he gave me.

I will see all the messages he sent to me before I sleep.

Although just simple chat, but it bring a strong feel to me.

Yea, our love is just that freaking simple but I love it.

Day shine not because of the sun but because of HIM.

People that close to me will know that, his appearance had take away my EMO.

I <3 Him.

1 day trip ?!

Tuesday I took the latest train, 8.30pm back to Ipoh, just because my mum asked. Fine, I wasted my RM6 to back Ipoh. First time balik Ipoh by train. Reach home, I am so tired till no eye to see her temper le. So settle down, back to room accompany my dear till I fall asleep.

Next morning, which mean today, I woke up and asked her that what she want me to do, she told me nothing. I was like....., wasted RM6 come back and do nothing. GOOD. and I wasted another RM10 back to Kampar. I was so freaking tired and headache with such plan.

Anyway, I still got his support and understanding.

I been wondering lately should I change my blog from English to Chinese.

[ any comment?? ]

(taken when in the train)

[ love this picture alot <3 ]

Thinking of post something, but I don't know what should I post.

Yea, Mum knew that I got boyfriend and Yea, she look likes agree but instead she just showing temper to me. I kinda suffer for whole day, because she is one of the people that can affect my feelings. I didn't tell him, because I don't want my own problems to affect his mood. I knew he been suffering with his works, so my things, I just don't wish to add on his burden. I still can act happily staying with him, as long as he is by my side. Hmm...sometimes relationship are like this, tolerate is the one of the important thing, I guess.

Yesterday A friend asked me,

"Do your boy control you alot?"

"No, I feel he just let me do whatever I want <3 ,why?"

"My gf said I control her alot."

"How you do first?"

"No,we just everyday keep on texting.."

"LOL.I am doing the same thing to my boy too. We even worst, not only phone but internet too. HAHA."

"WAH, You got so much thing to talk with him?"

"LOL. Hmm..I don't know, Just talk la, no matter what also can talk."

"So sweet."

"HEHE, thank you. I believe you can too."

"Hope my gf is like you."

"LOL. because your gf is not me, that's why you choose her."

Conversation close, blurekx.

Important is, *LOL.* Friends around me are saying that I am so lucky to have AWESOME BOYFRIEND. *HAHA,macam yes

Anyway, I am really glad and thanks God for giving me a WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND.

He really AWESOME *I never praise my ex before le,HEHE*

Our FIRST DATE

Today I am so happy. Why? Is our first date.

Been so excited with it, I pun tak tau kenapa. :P

Suppose meet up at 12.30pm, but due to personal reason, time delay.

So once I done my stuff, I reach Jusco at 1pm, and our boss still at home, haven't prepare. While waiting him, I go to see got movie for Sunday to watch with little brother. Waited for 15 minutes then he came. Hmm. so go for movie lar, SUPER 8. *macam yes

[ moment we spent in cinema remain P & C ] HAHA.

After movie, as usual go pak tor pak tor lu.

Well, it might look very normal and short but sorry to say that I am enjoy it. [SO WHAT?]

[forget to take picture,disturbed by him]

He showed HIS L.O.V.E

It's Friday.

Yesterday had been occur a problem between me and him, but in the end settle up.

Mum phoned me when her friend saw I posted,"I just wanna cry out loud" in my FB,she is worried me. I just wanted to shout out loud that " MUM,I LOVE YOU".Sometimes She do nag a lot, but I know that is because she care us. I feel blessed and proud to have her as my mum. No one can replace her in my heart.

Yea, As I say I had faced a problem with him. But in the end we settle up. How we settle? I have no idea. Could not deny that I am emotional girl. What to do? That's me. Feel uncomfortable with it, then just get off. Finally he told me who the girl is, by Isaac Ooi's help. Then I back home and check who the hell is she. Surprise that he liked almost every single photo of her. I pretend nothing happen, because seriously I don't wish our relationship get destroyed by this "LITTLE IMMATURE GIRL"

Anyway, he had give me a very strong feel that I know I can trust him. I am telling myself that I should trust him,since he had be so honest to me. Of course, while trusting, I also will listen to my beloved advices. Thank you for you guys be by my side, when I face a problem. Thank you for worry and care about me.

Sincerely say thank you to LAI KHEINEE, ISAAC OOI KEO WEI, LAU YEE SUE, SYAN TEH SIEW YAN, ELSON YONG SOON KEAT.... Thanks alot for being so caring to me. Love you guys a lot.

I L.O.V.E HIM

Hmm.Just finish phone with him.

He told me something which seriously affect my feelings.

Although I also don't know this matter is real or not, but as a gf, I still worry about it.

Got a girl might grab away my bf. I trust him but I have no confident toward myself. I feel that I am too lucky to have him.

Could not deny that my bf really handsome, not only myself is praising him but my friends and people around him. Just himself ignored. What to do?

Handsome guy sure got lots of admirer de ba. Every night before I sleep, I will feel blessed that I got him. Without him, my life might still be black and white due to the previous bf. He really do shine my life. Thank you, dear.

One of my dearest ji mui, Isaac Ooi Keo Wei said that he very jealous me that I am so sweet with him now. He asked me to appreciate him. Of course I will, but who know one day God jealous and take away him?

p/s: listening to [ U make me wanna - Blue ]

Back from Pangkor

Woah,what a 3days 2 nights trip at Pulau Pangkor.

Hmm...Actually I don't wanna go to this trip that organised by B.A Society.LOL.But in the end I attend this trip due to my housemate,Siew Yan. She is the one asked me to go. Well, I would like to thank her for inviting me to go, if not I don't know that it's so fun. I wanna to thank you my bie too for being so understanding.HEHE.Love him the most.

The first day I was in Pulau Pangkor,there is one of the night activities,night walk in jungle.Walau,those instructors are so bad, putting us in the jungle for one hour without phones and torch lights. HOLY SHIT! God know that I damn scare of darkness. Due to this, my boy worried me so much I guess.HAHA...once again he showed me how much he love me.

The second day was the snorkeling and kayak games. HOLY SHIT too! Because I DON'T KNOW SWIM. Gosh...That moment I though I gonna die kaw kaw in the Pangkor Sea. Then I told my group mates about it. My group except me and my housemate, Siew Yan, then is the four guys, which I don't really remember their names,but now okay adi lar.They are Nicholas, Zhi Yang, Chong Yao and Shaun. LOL. Before we go for snorkeling, there have a briefing for us. So those instructors bring us to the sea to test us.While learning, my group mates lost me already, and keep shouting "Chanel" in the sea. Walau, so embarrassing lor. But still thank you for so caring.

I am glad to know them, tell me that there is still people that so caring. LOL.

The third day which is the last day, we had a rock climbing activities. Once again, die kaw kaw. I scare of it lar and they keep comfort me and protect me, by my side, keep an eye on me. LOL. Thank you so much to my beloved group mates. I was like a princess, a little girl among them. *Hey, I am the most young in the group,they suppose to do so* :P

Anyway, I am enjoy with this trip. <3

p/s: will update pangkor trip photos soon.

About HIM < 3

Due to my last post is about 4 months ago.HOLY SHIT!I had been dump up my blog for so long.Sorry my dear.

Well,now I am having SEM4.At first will feel like so freaking MEMALUKAN when know I got SEM4.But sooner I realized "SO WHAT?".HAHA.

Anyway,Chanel is here by to bring a good news to all my blogger.I am in a relationship now!Yeps.Ya,although I had in a relationship before this,but this is the first time I announced to public.This guy is totally special than my previous exs'. He really changed my life. *macam yes*

He love me more than I love him.Yeah,this is what I wish for from my boyfriend.And he make it. Actually there is lots of things he have that make me feel comfortable when with him. He not only my boyfriend but also my listener. Wahaha. Lazy to type so much.:P

Here is the picture of my boyfriend.

Will update you guys soon. =]

Have a nice day to everyone.

我回来了

好久了，我没有POST部落格。在忙之余，我也挺懒惰啦！哈哈！不好意思！
两个月的时间，发生了好多好多事情！别说两个月，一天也可以发生很多我们想象不到的事情。
怎么说呢？2011的我，生活好像没有2010的那么EMO了。是怎么回事？我也不知道。现在的我，只希望每天晚上都有一个完美的句号。
以前的我好像一直都因为朋友而活，可是我心里所谓的好朋友，从来就没有认真地关系过我，只懂得需要我时才找我；既然你们如此对我，我也无言了，心已经伤透了，我们就保持着朋友关系吧，什么好朋友，好姐妹，都是骗人的，到某一段时刻，这些统统都被遗弃了，不是嘛？
活了19年，大部分的人情世故，我都看到了。可以说，一个人在告诉我事情，我都大概可以猜到了。有时我可以自认我看得懂别人的事情，解决到别人的问题，可是我自己的，却永远解决不到。我要求的永远都是我得不到的；我不想要的偏偏就出现在我眼前，上天啊，你在玩弄我嘛？说真的，我玩不起啊。我累了，好想有个我能依赖的肩膀给我好好休息。
可惜啊，男人啊男人，为什么你们就那么喜爱欺骗女人？难道你们不知道女人是很容易受伤害的动物嘛？身边有很多热恋中的情侣，也有些是受了伤的朋友，热恋中的朋友，我希望你们能幸福快乐，受伤了的朋友，就别再为了他/她而流泪，不值得啊，前面还有很多事情等待着你啊！
我这篇文章很闷吧？也许，可是都是在说着一些我每天都在面对的事情。
难道没有了爱情，人们就不能活下去嘛？不是的！没有了爱情，我们还有亲情和友情在我们的身边等待着我们，陪伴着我们！爱情不是全部！