22nd of Jan, You told that you have no feeling on our relationship anymore. Without I saying anything, you ended up our relationship. 1 year and 8 months of relationship, "no feeling" then everything end up. Did you care about my feelings before? Did you think clearly? Remember that night you asked me to give you time to settle SJ, now you are telling me that you give up me and continue your so called sweet life with her?
Don't mention how much I sacrifice for you, mention how much she willing to do for you? Can she don't sleep for few nights just because doing research for your FINAL YEAR PROJECT? Can she willing to argue with the family and friends just because of you? Can she willing sacrifice her time and freedom just 24 hours get ready for you? Tell me, what had she done that could make you choose her instead of me? I don't know, I really don't know where I did wrong. The most wrong thing I did it, I love you more than you love me.
Now already one week and one day we had been break up. Maybe you already forget who am I, but you still stay in my mind. Telling everyone that I am fine, I will slowly put down you, all just nonsense. I couldn't do it at all. Just because don't want them worry me. One of my friend, Joey more funny, she though I will going to die for you. Yes, I do think before. But I wanna see you really happy that moment, I only will leave the world perhaps. Issac Chen, you never give me any promises before, I never request too. I know we do not have future. But I just hope that our relationship could stay longer as we can. But from the moment you go back to her, I know our relationship gonna end. Even though but I still waiting for hope. But you again and again destroy everything, ruined everything. Why? Why you could be so cruel to me but not her? She really worth for you to do so? I really hope that one day you will come to me and say you regret for doing it. But all of them asking me don't hope, it won't happen. But till today I still hoping. One week, I been crying for 7 days and nights. I really don't know how myself gone through all these days. Knowing you took part in a competition with your brother. Asking all my friends to help and lying to them that I just wanna help your bro. What the stupid reason ever. They keep saying I shouldn't help you, some even not willing to help, need persuade them. So stupid me, doing all these stuff without asking any present. Maybe she will do the same too but she more luckily because she could get your love. But me, waiting for your love. Everyday I need wear a smile and face everyone but when come to night I need cry till sleep. Issac Chen, how you pass through this 8 days? Staying happily with her and going out with your boss happily? I guess so. Or maybe busy with your Final Year Project too, but she could help you, I believe.
8 days, many guys come and go, but no one could be like you, touched my heart so deep. From that moment, I know, my heart is not allow another guy step in, except you. Yes, you may put down everything of you and me. But I will never ever put down. Or maybe I shall say I staying with the memories we had. Going back those places we went before, everything just like yesterday. But the thing that change is only left me alone. Will you come back one day? I don't know. But I hope that it won't happen too late.
Goodbye my love.
Take care of yourself.
I still loving you.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Thursday, January 10, 2013
You hurt me again
Again, I discovered that he betray me, this time the actress is his ex.SJ
I still remember clearly that 9th of December, I told him that I went to KL with family,
He said he too, he attending a cousin wedding.All the reasons he told me is doesn't make sense at all.
Finally today I found out that he went to kl is to meet his ex. He lied to me. They change the profile picture together.
You never do so to me. You never request to take picture for me. You never change the profile picture with me. Never. You again and again proof to me that she is much more important to you than me. But you never admit.That night we talked this case in the phone. You told me that i am much more better than her. You don't wish I breakup with you. If yes, then why you choose to hurt me? I don't know when should I trust you when I shouldn't. That night what you talk in the phone, you seem think that I don't angry at all.
No! My heart very pain, until today I still very pain. But what can I do other than wearing a fake smile facing you? Why I could be so stupid and you could be so selfish? If you really can't let go her,tell me directly instead of hurting me again and again. My heart not made by stone ! I got so much things to shout out, but I know that I will make you suffering. In order to let you suffer, let myself suffer everything ba.
I know that you told her that you already breakup with me. You need do until like this? You told me that you don't trust her words. If yes, then why lie to her that we breakup? Or actually I am the 3rd party between both of you? Tell me the truth!!! Don't lie to me again and again. I couldn't stand all this shit happen to me again and again. I am facing all alone. Whenever she make you angry, you will put all your anger to me. Me le? Like a sohai, diam diam let you scold. You really though I know nothing? I just don't have evidence to proof it. I though you will come back to me one day. But fact is fact. You will choose to leave me instead of leave her. I been crying for days, what the hell do you know? You know nothing. You said you need time to settle, i wonder how long it will take. Hopefully don't until I walk away, you only chase me back. But I know you won't chase me back too. Did you really love me deep from your sincere heart before?
Whenever I heard you told people that you are with your girlfriend, do they really know who is your girlfriend? I suspect alot, I think alot, why I be like this? Is all because of your attitude. The first 3 months, we really close to each other, no secret. But after 3 months, nightmares happened, I have phobia.I couldn't sleep well every night.
2 years, 4 more months, we will be knowing each other for 2 years and also together 2 years. From I know you very well till today I know nothing. Why we need end up like this? Like this you will happy ma? I am not happy. But not to destroy your mood, I don't show out. Sometimes you said I show temper to you, but did you stand at my side and think why I will be turning up like this?
You, are the only men let me feel blissful before, but also the only men that hurt me again and again but I still loving you so much. I just wish that you could appreciate my love, I don't have so much time to be by your side le.
My BFF, Yern always mad at me because I keep sacrificing for this guy but he keep hurting me. I know that she want me to be happy, Yern, this man is choose by myself, what can I do with it? Who ask me to love him so deep? I really appreciate that you always be by my side, listen my complaint. Thank you. Give me times to slowly step out from this relationship one day. Or maybe that day will be my wedding with him? Who knows. Everyday, I hoping that he will only put me in his heart. I hope my wish will come true.
I still remember clearly that 9th of December, I told him that I went to KL with family,
He said he too, he attending a cousin wedding.All the reasons he told me is doesn't make sense at all.
Finally today I found out that he went to kl is to meet his ex. He lied to me. They change the profile picture together.
You never do so to me. You never request to take picture for me. You never change the profile picture with me. Never. You again and again proof to me that she is much more important to you than me. But you never admit.That night we talked this case in the phone. You told me that i am much more better than her. You don't wish I breakup with you. If yes, then why you choose to hurt me? I don't know when should I trust you when I shouldn't. That night what you talk in the phone, you seem think that I don't angry at all.
No! My heart very pain, until today I still very pain. But what can I do other than wearing a fake smile facing you? Why I could be so stupid and you could be so selfish? If you really can't let go her,tell me directly instead of hurting me again and again. My heart not made by stone ! I got so much things to shout out, but I know that I will make you suffering. In order to let you suffer, let myself suffer everything ba.
I know that you told her that you already breakup with me. You need do until like this? You told me that you don't trust her words. If yes, then why lie to her that we breakup? Or actually I am the 3rd party between both of you? Tell me the truth!!! Don't lie to me again and again. I couldn't stand all this shit happen to me again and again. I am facing all alone. Whenever she make you angry, you will put all your anger to me. Me le? Like a sohai, diam diam let you scold. You really though I know nothing? I just don't have evidence to proof it. I though you will come back to me one day. But fact is fact. You will choose to leave me instead of leave her. I been crying for days, what the hell do you know? You know nothing. You said you need time to settle, i wonder how long it will take. Hopefully don't until I walk away, you only chase me back. But I know you won't chase me back too. Did you really love me deep from your sincere heart before?
Whenever I heard you told people that you are with your girlfriend, do they really know who is your girlfriend? I suspect alot, I think alot, why I be like this? Is all because of your attitude. The first 3 months, we really close to each other, no secret. But after 3 months, nightmares happened, I have phobia.I couldn't sleep well every night.
2 years, 4 more months, we will be knowing each other for 2 years and also together 2 years. From I know you very well till today I know nothing. Why we need end up like this? Like this you will happy ma? I am not happy. But not to destroy your mood, I don't show out. Sometimes you said I show temper to you, but did you stand at my side and think why I will be turning up like this?
You, are the only men let me feel blissful before, but also the only men that hurt me again and again but I still loving you so much. I just wish that you could appreciate my love, I don't have so much time to be by your side le.
My BFF, Yern always mad at me because I keep sacrificing for this guy but he keep hurting me. I know that she want me to be happy, Yern, this man is choose by myself, what can I do with it? Who ask me to love him so deep? I really appreciate that you always be by my side, listen my complaint. Thank you. Give me times to slowly step out from this relationship one day. Or maybe that day will be my wedding with him? Who knows. Everyday, I hoping that he will only put me in his heart. I hope my wish will come true.
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